SHIT! I think last night I screwed up an not just a little, but royally. I told him everyting! I know, I know, it is too soon. I know this thing, whatever it is, might still be too new to handle this, but before I knew it, I had said it.
Of course, he was a complete and utter gentleman about it. Saying that it is not that I had said something wrong, but that it was a lot to digest. I totally understand that, but it doesn't lessen my own turmoil at the confession. I have only once in my life allowed myself to be this vulnerable and it did not end well. He rejected me and I built a wall so thick and high around my heart that I thought it was impenetrable.
All I can do now is wait to see how he will respond. That and pray that somehow I will leave this with my heart intact. However, if he is going to reject me too, I somehow doubt that is going to happen.
SHIT! What have I done?
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