People say its me not you, or that I am just not ready yet. However, it is extremely hard to believe this when over and over again the person on the other end of that conversation moves on to someone else. So you were not ready to be with me, but you are ready to be with someone els? It is hard not to take it as a personal insult, especially if said person continues to talk to you and then just randomly goes dark, only for you to accidently discover via facebook no less that they are seeing someone else.
How can I not take it personally? I always seem to be the side piece, just incase etc. When will someone see me for what I am? The amazing, loving caring person with the big heart. I am tired of not being seen as special or just the friend. I am pretty darn amazing and I deserve someone who will see this is me. I deserve someone who will come looking and chasing after me.
When this will happen I don't know, but I am done asking for the love of a good man when I am deserving of it. I am in fact demanding it.
